A lot of Stress

The last few weeks have been pretty hard. I have been depressed, without reason and I haven't found a solution that will make me feel better. I haven't been as bad as I have been in the past. But in the last two days things have gotten pretty bad.

It looks like my husband is going to lose his job in the next week or so. He got notice that he was looking at the internet too much at work and now they have taken it away from him. I am so dressed about this for the obvious reasons but I am also upset because it is almost my daughter's 13th birthday, it will be Christmas, then my sons birthday and then our anniversary. We have a lot coming up over the next 3 months. I am hoping that we will be able to afford to have happy events.

In a way I am kind of mad at my husband for putting us all in this situation, but I can't tell him that. No matter how much I want to yell at him. I am trying to be as supportive as i can. It's really hard though. I also wish that he would talk about it. He just wants to come home and watch TV and zone out. I know that he is thinking about it, I just wish that he would talk to me about it.

I called his parents today because I really am worried about how depressed my husband is. They really want to talk to him but I don't think that it would be good right now. I suggested that he call his father but he says he can't do it right now.

I really hope that all of this works out. I just can't type anymore.