Dealing with Feelings

I am having so much trouble right now. With my emotions being so weird and my body acting crazy I don't know what to do with myself. I am also trying to quit smoking, that is going okay, but I am still smoking. My actual quit day is Saturday. I don't know if that will be the last day I will actually smoke my last cigarette but I am going to try to make it my last day.

One other thing is that with Chantix I don't actually have to smoke my last cigarette that day. I can smoke until the Chantix makes the cigarettes not make me feel good anymore. I am also going to start trying to change my habits as much as possible so that I can get used to not smoking every 5 minutes. Okay, that a little exaggerated but I do smoke about 2-3 packs of cigarettes a day.

I am going to try to get a hobby that uses both hands like knitting. I am going to start leaving my smokes home when I am only going to be out of the house for a couple of hours. Doing things like not smoking right after I eat is going to be hard but if I can get past that I should be able to avoid a lot of other things that make me smoke.

I'll write more tomorrow, maybe I will have good news about my habits when write then.