My Best Friends 30th Birthday

Today is my best friends birthday. I had tried to hint around that I wanted her to take the day off and hang out with me the night before but i don't think that she got it. I really can't blame her, I should have just come right out and told her. However, she is going out to dinner tonight with her family, which is really cool because she loves family time. Then she told me that she is going to visit this woman that didn't even bother to call her on her birthday. I was a little hurt, but I am having emotion "female Issues" right now, so I didn't want to tell her what I was really thinking.

This is a person that has really pissed her off quite a bit over the last few months and it hurt my feelings. I didn't know at the moment if it was because it was my true feelings or if it was because I HAVEN'T GOTTEN MY PERIOD IN 3 MONTHS. So the cramps are really bad now and I am doing my (according to my husband) I am pissed off funny routine. It seems that when I get seriously pissed off I don't like that feeling so I make jokes about how pissed off I am until I get better. This isn't a typical PMS thing for me because to be as honest as possible I don't get PMS, but I now feel for the women who do. I really hate this feeling I don't like the idea of not being able to control my feelings.

At the time of the call this afternoon i didn't want to start a fight not knowing whether this was a true feeling or not. Now that I have time to think about it and I am hoping to talk to my husband before I say anything to her about it. I would like a rational look at what is going on. I did say in a joking manner to her that it wasn't fair that I went out of the way to get her a gift and I even stayed up until 12 just to be the first person to say Happy Birthday to her and she was blowing me off to go see her other friend that didn't even remember to tell her happy birthday.

I felt really hurt by the whole thing, but like I said before, I really didn't know that it was a true emotion. I didn't want to lose a great friendship over something as stupid as this really. And I have to add that we already have plans to go out to dinner together next week. I want to take her out for dinner but I am going to contact her husband and I want to find out what she would really eat. The last time I took her our for dinner she just ordered the cheapest thing on the menu. I personally am going to order the best thing on the menu, Lobster stuffed with blue crab. If your familiar with Maryland we like anything with a side order of crab. I also order the Crab meat appetizer. I never have enough room for the whole lobster after all of that but it's good the next morning.

Okay, Happy Birthday to you even though you don't know I am writing this. I have to say that she is the closest that I have ever been to another woman since I was sleeping with one. And I have a sincere love for her and her family. I never want to lose her as a friend again. I don't know how I lucked on it but her and I are so alike it is so great. We never run ou tof things to talk about. And, we are both sex addicts and in every conversation we end up talking about sex. I think that I am more honest with her about sex then I am with my husband. I should work on that.